:: i'm having some cheetos! ::

Saturday, usually is a pretty good day! NOT THIS SATURDAY THOUGH! Like, yesterday(friday) i got in a HUUUUUUUGE fight with my girlfriend, and i got really pissed off!!!!! i dunno what to do anymore.... we had to give a break, maybe we were pretty tired from each other, you know what i mean?! i felt bad yesterday when i took her home, and after this fight we had to say goodbye, and i don't really know when i'll get to see her again!

Keep like from wednesday to friday just fighting and fighting it's no fun at all! i'm telling you! i'm pretty confused now, and i don't really know what the hell i'm supposed to do.

'i felt the tears falling on my face
not a word was spoken
there wasn't anything right(at all)
things changed, i've changed!
i need a guide, i need a light
i'm on this highway, and i don't know where it ends
i'd say, i have no way to go
i'd say i have nothing to do
i'd say my heart feels everything,
but it will never tell me what i'm supposed to do!'

i need someone to understand me... times like these are not really easy to go through... i feel empty, and there's something missing inside of me! i don't feel those butterflies in my stomach, no more! i'm angry, i'm dirty, i'm stupid... but that's the way i am! i'm not a game, don't like to be 'played'! i'm kinda cold sometimes, but i feel things, and it's not easy for me to listen to some stuff(specially when they're not true!)... it hurts! it hurts so bad! it makes me feel totaly powerless... well.... let me enjoy this fuckin' saturday that has NO END AT ALL! i'll write here soon, 'cause is the only way i can say what i'm feeling now... bye for now!

/eman