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Saturday, usually is a pretty good day! NOT THIS SATURDAY THOUGH! Like, yesterday(friday) i got in a HUUUUUUUGE fight with my girlfriend, and i got really pissed off!!!!! i dunno what to do anymore.... we had to give a break, maybe we were pretty tired from each other, you know what i mean?! i felt bad yesterday when i took her home, and after this fight we had to say goodbye, and i don't really know when i'll get to see her again!

Keep like from wednesday to friday just fighting and fighting it's no fun at all! i'm telling you! i'm pretty confused now, and i don't really know what the hell i'm supposed to do.

'i felt the tears falling on my face
not a word was spoken
there wasn't anything right(at all)
things changed, i've changed!
i need a guide, i need a light
i'm on this highway, and i don't know where it ends
i'd say, i have no way to go
i'd say i have nothing to do
i'd say my heart feels everything,
but it will never tell me what i'm supposed to do!'

i need someone to understand me... times like these are not really easy to go through... i feel empty, and there's something missing inside of me! i don't feel those butterflies in my stomach, no more! i'm angry, i'm dirty, i'm stupid... but that's the way i am! i'm not a game, don't like to be 'played'! i'm kinda cold sometimes, but i feel things, and it's not easy for me to listen to some stuff(specially when they're not true!)... it hurts! it hurts so bad! it makes me feel totaly powerless... well.... let me enjoy this fuckin' saturday that has NO END AT ALL! i'll write here soon, 'cause is the only way i can say what i'm feeling now... bye for now!

/eman

what an incredible day!

yesterday (sunday, september 5th) was a super-awesome day! oh gosh! me, my girlfriend and some of our friends we went out to the movies, and we got to see a pretty cool brazilian movie called 'OLGA' which was pretty interesting! for real, if you get the chance to see it, GO AHEAD! then, we saw some other people there, and we went to this japanese restaurant, and we got to eat some sushi, and it was tasting so GR-E-AT!! anyways, then some people went home, and we were partyin' for a while.

we drank a pretty weird drink, named 'BABAO', and it was like some liquor, beer and some other stuff there, and they light up with a fire, and then we drank it! it was tasting pretty good though! after that, we were a little DRUNK, and we went to drink some beer! We were playing games and talking some shit, which was pretty fun! There wasn't so croweded as friday and saturday. Oh my god! and i had to take my girlfriend home, and i was pretty worried 'cause i was drunk, and i hate to drive when i'm drunk, and if something happens, i'm all fucked up! so... i was driving at 30 mph.... hahahaha.... way too slow, but happily i got back home safely and no car crashes at all, also because there wasn't any cars at 4 am on the street... and no security guards too... but anyways, it was a great adventure, and i had SOOOOOOOOOO much fun! you guys have no idea, I HAD THE BEST DAY EVER! lol

hey guys, i will let you guys go, and i'll post again sometime soon, or when i have something interesting to say here! so, bye for now!


/eman

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