mad

how mad am i? well, i'm extremelly mad right now! okay, here in brazil things are different, well, sometimes it's really different! we go to college here, but our parents still give us the money we need and all stuff like that! okay, it's just missing 1 year and 2 months until i get to graduate, THANKS GOD! Because i can't really understand my mother, and i just noticed she is full of angryness, and i don't really know why she had like 4 children if she only cares about 2! well, me and my younger sister are outta this list, because she never cares about us, welll i guess she cares a lot more about our cousins, and every other people but us! Well, lemme explain what happened: last friday i went to joao pessoa (my parent's house) and it was mine and isabella's anniversary (3 years 5 months together) and we wanted to go to mc donald's to get something to eat watching some movies, and then i asked my mother for this money and she started yelling at me, and she treated me extremelly bad, like if i meant nothing to her, but i didn't yell back at her nor answered, i just left home with a huge pain inside of me, like i really wanted to cry, to yell and all of these stuff together, but as i didn't do that, i felt even worse! So, she fucked up our anniversary! But it would be okay, if on the next day (saturday) she haven't gone with my cousin Sabino and his wife to have lunch, and they've spent something around R$300, and she didn't care at all.. So, why would she care about giving me R$11 to go to mc donald's?! Can anyone in this world explain me that?! That's why i can't really wait to go away, and I won't really care about family anymore, because there's no family to me! But okay, i felt really bad again writing these stuff, it's like if it was happening again, and I really don't wan't to pass through it again. Besides, as I've said before, there is just 1 year and 2 months left (THANKS GOD!) and as soon as possible I'll leave home, I PROMISE!