i love my family so much

this is my family:

kenia, karol, katarina, maria (my mum) and emanuel (my dad)... my name is emanuel, just like my daddy's name... and i'm going to leave them in about one month! it's going to be hard! i'll live by myself, and the city i'm going to live (campina grande-pb) is about one and a half hour by car, but now i'll have to be more responsable, and i'm sure i'm going to grow up a lot! i'll make my decisions, and i'll have to start all over again! I'll meet people that i've never saw in my whole life, and i won't have anyone down there to support me or help me when i need! i've seen some cases of people that leave home and move to live in a city, and usually they know a few people who lives there... but that's not my case, 'cause i don't know anybody, and i'll have to make friends, and to start showing people who i am... it's pretty hard to do those kinds of things! i've done that once, when i went up to america to spend one year as an exchange student, and i didn't know anyone nor even speak the language! but now it's different... brazilian people are pretty nasty sometimes, and they can be pretty false! i know! these people are way too dangerous! and the worst thing: MY LIFE WON'T BE THE SAME ANYMORE!

I'll come here to Joao Pessoa on friday's to stay at home and to see my girlfriend, but i'm ready for anything (at least, i think i am). Right now, no one is supporting me with these things and i'm really 'down', 'cause i don't think my family want me to go to that city nor my girlfriend wants that! But you know why i'm going to that freakin' city? 'cause i've got in a state college, and it's all free, like, my parents won't have to pay a penny for my education anymore! that was the thing that most convinced me! I'm going to get a major degree on Chemistry (Industrial area) and i hope everything is going to work out... then, my plans go even further: I wanna work on an american industry, like an alcohol or sugar factory! those are my plans, and i'm pretty sure i'm going to succeed! well, i have to go now, and i'll be back anytime! :D