its freakin' coming

Okay
Here I am again, I know I am updating this too much, but okay, I really enjoy writing when I get the time for it. Before reading all this shit pay attention, you kind of have to be a Brazilian to understand what I’m going to say on this post, okay, but if you are not a Brazilian then you will say I’m crazy and I’m the most undecided person in the whole world… fine I already knew that!
What I study?! Industrial Chemistry
Do you really like it?! Yeap, I do like it very much!
Why did you apply for a different university to study Chemical Engineer?! Okay, both of them have lots of chemistry, this is only one point. Also, a chemical engineer learns a lot more, and so I guess it would be great to be an engineer! Back to reality guys, I just took the tests and tomorrow the results are coming out, and I don’t really know if my freakin’ name will be on that fuckin’ list… I’m just mad ‘cause the results were supposed to come out like last week, and they got way too slow and so they are already one week late, but fine Emanuel, do not complain about it, it will come out tomorrow, you have waited something like 1 week, what’s wrong about 24 hours?! Lol
I guess I didn’t do well on math, I am not that bad but what happened is that the freakin’ math test was way to hard, and it is not my fault, so…anyway, if you think I’m way too confused I’ll tell you that both of universities I’ve applied are free, so I can go to two different really good universities at the same time…I already have one year ahead, so there’s nothing really to worry about.. I hope god will be with me tomorrow, and I don’t wanna see that list without my name, if I do, I guess I’ll have to give up! Lol

Today was okay here on my job, I didn’t do much, I mean, I did what I could. People here use to help me a lot which is good for me, but sometimes I wish I could learn things faster, but I guess its just too much information at the same time, and it gets me confused all of the time. Okay, today is almost over and tomorrow I won’t have to come over ‘cause I have lots of things to do, like I have to buy my clothes for new years, get a haircut and also get things done ‘cause Saturday I won’t really have time to do lots of things. I just wanna say thanks to Isabella to read all of this crap, which is good and bad. Good because she gets to improve her English and bad because she is like invading my blog…which is not a problem, I let you do it honey! I just wanna know if you read all of this shit! But its okay, tomorrow I’ll be back, and I hope I will have great news!

tuesday, december 27th 2005

dear diary,

fuck it all...

i need a new way to start it over... so let's try it again!

fuckin' bastards who come over to read this fuckin' crap, WELCOME TO MY LIFE! okay, okay... way too mean mr writer... and there's no chance so you better start writing what you have to say before forgeting it!
my life has changed and not too long ago i was writing here that i was afraid about college and about changing cities... and here we are, after like a school year, i'm completely alive, this year wasn't easy though... i've found some roomates, and then they were like making my life a living hell... i couldn't study at home at all, they used to make lots of noisy, they were like monsters and after all, they didn't even study... so, they're bunch of badasses. I tried hard after a college semester to study more, and it kinda worked out... my grades increased quite a lot, but for some subjects it was a little late, 'cause i already had bad grades on the beggining... and only now i got the rhythim, and i know how things work out at college, and i might say i'm glad now, rather late then never!

remembering this year of 2005:

*Love : the only person i loved this year was isabella(this includes my family, but i'm talking about girlfriends okay u asshole! lol), and i'm even happier with her...

*Studies : it was pretty strange at the beggining... living alone, going to college, didn't know anybody... lots of different situations, lots of things to learn... and okay, i didn't learn how to make a really delicious food, most of things were already ready, 'cause i really didn't have the time to cook or to do anything else

*Work : i got a new job (okay, as a treinee but it is still a job!) and i'm still learning a lot. Well i forgot to say but i'm working on an alcohol plant and i'm not an alcoholic! ;)

*Trips : i didn't travel as much as i wanted, but i had some pretty interesting moments in Pipa, a precious beach here in brazil with my family and my girl. i also traveled a lot, like, every week i traveled like 200 miles, from Campina to Joao Pessoa and then back to Campina... great trip! fine!

*Health : I thought i would eat healthier but it didn't work out for this year, so%2